I've been going through what I've called an existential crisis. I've been doubting my academic choice, my career plans, all of my human relationships. A nasty emptiness, the hunger that can never be filled, has arisen in me and I cannot seem to soothe it.
I think it all comes down to the fact that I'm bored.
I go to school, I go to work, I see my boyfriend, I do homework, I sleep. Repeat endlessly.
I have my hobbies...reading and writing, art here and there, the gym (yawn).
I would like to cook, to garden, to hike, to foster animals. But I have no place of my own and no car. So...these options are not realistic.
I don't really have time to volunteer (and believe me, I'd like to), because I do have my obligations (work and school). I'm looking for that little extra special me time (but fulfilling "me time"), that little part of the day I can look forward to, that means something.
I feel like a stranger looking in on myself. My days flow in and out...it's only exciting when something bad happens. Nothing good or celebratory seems to occur anymore.
Advice?
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Goodness.
ReplyDeleteOffhand, what is your "career choice?"
Even if you aren't doing what you love all the time (and, as you probably well know, most people aren't) you should at least be feeding your interests.
Are you connected with any groups that help create a set time and place for that to happen?